Well not very many people know that I have been struggling with daily life, and just recently I’ve came out telling people. Today I want to announce everything, get everything off my shoulders even more. As everyone should know that I have 3 kids, which are 2 and 3 almost 4!! :) And my husband is currently working out of state, which makes everything on my shoulders. My mind is on an overload 24 hours a day and never stops, which concludes to me at nights bawling my eyes out, cause I way to much stress to deal with day to day. Even during the day time it is hard to think what I should do for my kids to make them happy to make me happy. The first thing that would come to mind was lie in bed, eat some food, and watch a movie. In which any kid I don’t care whose kid it is they don’t find any of that fun. But somehow I always keep myself going through out the days. And just usually have a mental break down after the kids go to bed.
So today I am glad to say that I am back on track, thanks to my Moms advice and a awesome referral to an amazing doctor who understands. I have been doing some serious dieting and I’m already down 11 pounds. Its only been 2 weeks but I feel that I have changed my whole life, by making myself feel better. I am going to everything in my power to get my weight down to a normal weight, not a super skinny. All I keep telling myself is that, “No type of injury is going to hold be back and no piece of cake is going to pull me down”. I am determined to get my life back piece by piece and no one or nothing is going to take that from me.
Something that just recently struck me was that my Uncle Jim left this world on Friday, from something that he couldn’t control anymore. He fought to the very end of his life. I want to be like him, I want to fight for my life to my last days. God told him it was his time, and God has given me a second chance. I am going to be here when all my kids get married, for when they advice to get through life, and especially when they start having kids of there own.
I feel that a big black cloud has been lifted from me, its taking its sweet time, I feel like a whole new person, mom and sister. I just have a whole new out look on life and I am saying goodbye to the old BreAnn. Welcoming a whole new person, some who cares for herself as well as others. So everyone knows I am setting a small goal, and by Christmas I want to be down 30 pounds. I know that’s not very much but its enough to start. And hopefully by next Christmas I will be a completely different person.
HERE IS TO A NEW WAY OF LIFE!!!
