Time to "Wrap" up the Year

     Being that its December, I think its time to talk about some Christmas events that have happened so far. And if you had seen my kids lately they would tell you that Santa will be coming and we need to feed his reindeer. So this month the boys have had a lot of fun with school. During the beginning of the month, Daniel and Jared have been doing lots of Christmas themed project, excited as ever they have been hanging them all over my house. And counting down to when Santa comes. They had their first Christmas program for school, which went OK from I heard. I wasn't able to make it, so I had some wonderful family members that helped them get there. Good thing too, cause the boys weren't willing to sit up on stage by themselves. Thanks to Aubre and Annie for their good spirits. Afterwards after their singing they met up with me and told me it wasn't very much fun, that they don't like to sing like I do. I laughed but encouraged them that they did so good after we watched them on the camera.

     We also did some cookie decorating, making a Princess gingerbread castle, a huge gingerbread cabin with garage and a huge gingerbread train. We went with my family down to the Spanish Fork lights for the first time in years, I made a personal trip to the Thanksgiving lights. Adriann is in love with the lights always asking me to take her to see more lights. The boys also had a Polar Express day at school, wearing their pj's while eating cookies and drinking milk. They also made a lot of gifts this year, and even got one from Mrs. Clark that they are waiting to open on Christmas day. We also got some Reindeer food, so that we can feed them on Christmas Eve. Then last week we went to go see Santa, which wasn't as bad of an event as I thought it might be. We got there and all the kids shut down wanted nothing to do with him. So I started telling Santa that Danny wanted a Airplane, and Danny jumps up and says " no, I want a working Mater, and Jared wants a lightening" and Jared who was at his crying stage, sits right up and in a very rude way says, "NO, I want a Truck". From there it was smooth sailing, took some awesome pictures, and off we went.

     I love the Christmas Holiday when family is brought together. Celebrating the best birthday of the year! I can't wait to see our kids faces on Christmas morning.
                                      

Laughing Moments

I thinks about time for another post. Since its been so long, I'll just start back in October. I have to warn you this is going to be a lot of updates! Mainly for my enjoyment, because I ran out of room in my journal. So I need a new journal again! Anyhow October we had some exciting events like Halloween! Well all month long we would go to Cornbelly's thank heaven for the season passes that we got for $20. By the end of the month I'm so done with that place. But the kids love it so much, get to ride on there favorites Thanksgiving Point cow train, Especially Adriann (hint she was a cow for a Halloween). Danny and Jared are in love with the jumping pillows, and the paintball shooting area. But this year we did something different we went on their last days, which are called pumpkin smash! Best time ever, they had a crane in which they dropped those 250-400 giant pumpkins. Everyone loved it, when the huge pumpkins came crashing to the ground exploding everywhere, loved it when I had to cover all the kids eyes to keep the guts from damaging their eyes. Cause there was that one pumpkin that got way to close to us. We actually felt the water splash all over us. Than a huge tractor ran over any pumpkins they had left that they didn't sell. It was amazing, it kinda sucked that it was so cold. But hey were living. Than in the 25th we did our grand pumpkin carving, Adriann lost interest super fast but Daniel and Jared were more into it than they have ever been in the past. Jared decided he wanted a Jeep, since he is so in the Jeep dream. He even knows which kind of Jeep he wants, which is a lime green Rubicon. He loves his Uncle Brent for having one, now almost everyone in the Jessop family has some type of a Jeep. But Daniel tells me he wants a nice Jeep that's white like his Dad's truck. Back to Halloween Daniel decided on Mario and Princess (Adriann) decided on a cow, surprise huh?. It was a successful Halloween Daniel and Jared were Captains, Aubre (my sister) was there slave pirate! Alli she was a beautiful cartoon character from Scooby Doo.

Enough about Halloween, let's talk about preschool. Jared and Danny are doing amazing, they are learning so much more than I could ever teach them mainly in there speech. Just like the Tuesday before Thanksgiving they went to school, came home telling the funniest thing. They got in the car and Danny asked me, " when is the turkey coming out of the oven?" At the time I really just thought they meant a dead turkey. But I was completely wrong, later that night after work we got home, and over heard them talking about what Miss Clark told them about. Danny asks Jared the same question, and Jared says, " I don't know let's ask mom," so they some ask me I tell them that their won't be a turkey in my oven its going to come out of Grandma's oven. Oh is what they said and ran off. Than I noticed through out the next couple of days they kept opening my oven to see if a real turkey with feathers and all was going to come out real soon. Hilarious! Some more funny moments with them talking was Halloween night, we were driving up to get Jed's truck so he could go back to work that night. And Danny in the back seat randomly says,

Danny:" Mom, my butt hurts"
Me: " why does it hurt Danny"
Danny: " My underwear is in it"
Me: "Well get it out"
Danny then starts digging into his pants and than Jared looking him with this awkward look on his face and says, "OH MY".. I love there funny sense of humor those two have.

Now I realize that its not even December yet, but I could wait kinda excited for the holidays. So we set up our Christmas tree early this year, Danny was so excited and kept thanking me for getting him a tree inside his house. We bought some new decoration which was really needed. The kids were so cute helping me organize by color, so one side of the tree is blue and the other side is silver! All well it doesn't matter what the tree looks like, all that matters is how much fun they had doing it. Another thing that happen during our Christmas tree event was trying to unwind the lights to get them ready, I guess one of the bulbs were pretty weak, shattered in my hand placing glass in my hand. The rest of the night my whole arm and hand just felt completely numb. So apparently I had something more happen. All well I lived through that too.

So I haven't mentioned much about Adriann, and man is she just a little girl. Always wanting to brush and comb my hair, pretend blow drying my hair with her fake dryer. And loves her brothers more than anything, she always is asking if there okay. Plays another very well with their games. She is in love with Repunzel, and getting another favorite which is Brave.. loves playing house, in her doll house. I love her with everything, my life would be much less girl without her. The last thing I'm going to mention is that the kids have been having some issues going to the dentist to get their teeth cleaned and looked at. The last time we went we were unsuccessful, I was pretty upset about it but what do you do? You bribe them that's what you do, I got them some gifts to have once they let the dentist clean them. It's like a cheap cheap Christmas for them. And they are so excited hopefully all goes well tomorrow! Wish me lots of luck. Well I think I've chatted up a storm and need to try to get some sleep, probably not going to happen, but I'll at least I can say I'm trying

A Whole New Look on Life...

     Well not very many people know that I have been struggling with daily life, and just recently I’ve came out telling people. Today I want to announce everything, get everything off my shoulders even more. As everyone should know that I have 3 kids, which are 2 and 3 almost 4!! :) And my husband is currently working out of state, which makes everything on my shoulders. My mind is on an overload 24 hours a day and never stops, which concludes to me at nights bawling my eyes out, cause I way to much stress to deal with day to day. Even during the day time it is hard to think what I should do for my kids to make them happy to make me happy. The first thing that would come to mind was lie in bed, eat some food, and watch a movie. In which any kid I don’t care whose kid it is they don’t find any of that fun. But somehow I always keep myself going through out the days. And just usually have a mental break down after the kids go to bed.

     So today I am glad to say that I am back on track, thanks to my Moms advice and a awesome referral to an amazing doctor who understands. I have been doing some serious dieting and I’m already down 11 pounds. Its only been 2 weeks but I feel that I have changed my whole life, by making myself feel better. I am going to everything in my power to get my weight down to a normal weight, not a super skinny. All I keep telling myself is that, “No type of injury is going to hold be back and no piece of cake is going to pull me down”. I am determined to get my life back piece by piece and no one or nothing is going to take that from me.
    
     Something that just recently struck me was that my Uncle Jim left this world on Friday, from something that he couldn’t control anymore. He fought to the very end of his life. I want to be like him, I want to fight for my life to my last days. God told him it was his time, and God has given me a second chance. I am going to be here when all my kids get married, for when they advice to get through life, and especially when they start having kids of there own.
    
     I feel that a big black cloud has been lifted from me, its taking its sweet time, I feel like a whole new person, mom and sister. I just have a whole new out look on life and I am saying goodbye to the old BreAnn. Welcoming a whole new person, some who cares for herself as well as others. So everyone knows I am setting a small goal, and by Christmas I want to be down 30 pounds. I know that’s not very much but its enough to start. And hopefully by next Christmas I will be a completely different person.


                                     HERE IS TO A NEW WAY OF LIFE!!!

A Story Many Don't Know...

As I lay here in bed tonight listening to all the crazy sounds my apartment has to offer, I can't help but think back to the story that happened to me and the boys when they were younger. And yes this might sound like a false story but its very true every angle. But before telling you this story I hope this helps so I can sleep better at nights and won't ever happen again..
Well back in August of 2009 we had just moved into our second apartment which was in up in Murray. And the boys were about 7 months old and weren't really doing much at the time picking up toys put them on their mouths, and were up odd hours of the night to get a bottle to go back to sleep. So on this particular night in August, I had got up because I could hear the boys crying. So got up and was just turning on the water in the sick, when I heard a strange sound coming from the front door. So I went to go turn on the light and look out front, when I saw a strange metal like object going up and down the door jam. So I kinda freaked out and ran into the bedroom to wake up Jed. I startled him so he runs into the kitchen holding a forceful weapon. The next thing I really remember is that we called the cops to get a police report on it, cause the door jam was torn up. Anyways I have a hard really going back to bed that night, so I finally just get early that next day to go to work..
Well got to work safely that day, and I probably got home around 5:30 or so, to find that my front sort was wide open. Everything was everywhere things were torn out every crack in my house. So I immediately call Jed leaving me and the boys in my car (just in case who ever was in there wasn't going to harm me or my boy). He said call the cops and ill be there real soon. So I did as I was told, and the cops came did some finger prints, asked a couple questions like if we can see something that they might have taken. Well I tried to walk through the front to look, and all my expensive things were still there, my X-box. Pills etc...The police hand me a card telling me if Anything else happens let me know. I said all right and got to cleaning up our house. Well needless to say that night was a terrible night to be sleeping in that house. Bit I seemed to have made it through.
But that's not the end of the story it gets worse. The next morning after I woke up, my mom calls me to tell that there isn't very many kids so I don't have to come down to work today. Which I though was good because of my sleepless nights. Well Jed came home that day to have lunch with us, and right before he got there I jumped into the shower to get cleaned, so my hair was wet. We than hurried and ate lunch so he could get back to work. And when he was gone I put the boys in the walkers in the front room so I could hurry and blow dry my hair. Normally I put my head upside down to start blow drying it, next thing I know is someone grabs my shoulders with force, thinking it was Jed, I stood up to find it wasn't him.. I'm dreaming out by now, he grabs me throws me into the bedroom while my boys are in the front room still. I called Jed telling him to turn around than fastly hang up to call 911.. this guy than pops his head through the door and tells me " I'm Taking Them". All I really remember from that point is when the police arrived they had search dogs everywhere, investigators getting finger prints. And remembered my house was trashed once again. But as you should know I still have my boys to this day, how I got them back you ask? Well that's the weird part before the guy took off running or what ever he did he pretty much threw them to me in my room and I hugged them so hard and cried so hard at the same time.
So as I sit here by myself in bed listening to all these sounds I can't help but think of those 48 hours that all of that happened.I want to thank all those people that were there for me like Jed's parents cause they let is stay at their boys for as long as I wanted. My whole family, how can I not love them all..I do really love them all!

Blog Starts Again

Well as we all know that Jed works out of town now, and is hardly home. So I need to keep myself busy, and that I have done this month!! Its been a crazy crowded month with hardly anytime to relax. It started with the the 4th we went up to Jed's parents house to celebrate his Dad's Birthday and do some fireworks. I knew it was going to be a relaxing holiday once we got there cause everyone was crashed. I am serious, they were everywhere snoring away! Just kidding about the snoring don't want to offend anyone. But it was a very laid back holiday had some awesome food, and even had some fireworks to end the night. It was a lot of fun.
On the 24th is was quite the day, let me tell ya. Almost 4 hours in the car to only be 30 minutes from home. I know it doesn't make since till you hear the story. Our plan was to go River Rafting exciting I know. Shanna's Awesome friend helped us get our tubes and off we went up Spanish Fork Canyon to ride the river. Well after being in the car for almost 2 1/2 hours. We decided after touching the water it was way to cold to put our bums into the water. It had to be like 70 outside and to have ice cold water on your bums not fun. Change of plans we went to Utah Lake, to a private beach called Sandy Shore or something. Well me being a parent with three kids (all little kids) I kinda got worried but, after arriving almost 4 hours later to the lake. It was a blast!! I would totally take the kids back there again. The best part was I wasn't too worried about my kids drowning anymore. I started to relax and went to ride the waves! It was a day that will be hard to forget.
Well as most of you have seen I finally took the kids to get some pictures done. And does it ever have a story behind it.. Well just in case I needed help (in which I needed a lot) I brought Jed's sisters Tiffany and Becky to come along this adventure with us. When I first got there I was worried Daniel was going to be a BIG problem, but to my surprise it was Jared. You wouldn't be able to tell looking at the pictures but Becky had to run around with her head cut off. Tiff had to play an awesome game of catch with Jared. And Jared even had a tantrum and fell off the bed. But everything that happened and looking at the pictures it was all totally worth it.

Life Change

So its been about a month since the last update. And a lot is going on so much that I just might forget some details. so that's the main reason why I am going to write it down as it goes by. Well our life has been all over the place lately, well the week before last Jed was offered a new job. In which will help is out in the money end and insurance mainly. But it means we won't see him very much cause he works out in Wyoming. But this week and part of last week he has been in North Dakota getting some training. And has not been very easy dealing with all three kids by myself isn't exactly easy. But its been actually pretty good so far. Jared definitively misses his always talking about but today was pretty hard me, when at dinner Jared points at his Dads chair at the table and says" dad in truck forever". And then gets a huge frown on his face, and walks away from the chair. And Daniel always saying " call Dad". But Adriann misses him too just doesn't know how to verbalize how she feels about all this. And for me, I had a rough first day but know that everything that he is doing is better for us and our family. Sleeping without someone next me is hard also. I always been one that need someone next to me, just to feel their warmth. Exciting for me though Adriann got sick and now I am sick so is Jared so we have kinda been sleeping in the same bed to make each other feel better. What a bad timing to get sick. But were making it through it and our week will got by super fast hopefully.

A Little Update

So the other day we had a great time with my family at the zoo. Jared and Daniel loved a lot more now that the dinosaurs aren't there. Less crying which was great. Even though the dinosaurs were more exciting for me. Adriann actually was into it this time. Probably cause she is now at the interacting stage. In which she starting to verbalize everything and constantly yelling "Mom", and tattle-teling on what the boys are doing.
Another thing I hate talking about is having to clean out the kids drawers. When I clean them out I have to then really realize how big my kids are getting.8( it makes me so sad to have get rid of all them. But I know I won't need them anytime soon. And I don't want to become more attached to the clothes. So I finally did it got rid of all their 2T clothes and into the 3T and 4T. Adriann is my next project. I just want to face that my baby is growing all up.

And I totally forgot to upload this video of Jared enjoying his birthday cake. It's so funny how huge his bites are.gotta watch.

New Things Happening

Well its been a little while so I thought I would catch ya up. Well we finally moved into our nice and very warm condo. Not even being here a whole month have had some eventful events. We got our suburban towed and had to pay the fee. All because we were being nice to not tow our neighbours car that was parked in our spot. But after I had to pay my fee I got them towed. Apparently people are not very nice down here with parking.
We also celebrated Jared and Daniel's 3rd Birthday. They loved it so much. We ended up going to Jungle Jims Playland. Ended up being a good party. They got to ride a rides with everyone. They were spoiled with presents and all the family love.
Last thing is let me tell ya about my lovely day today. It started off terrible Jared woke about 4:30 this morning and accidentally looped in his pants. It was nasty for sure. So a shower he had. Than I get him ready to go back to bed and found out that he actually poop in his pants in bed. So had to strip his bed and make him a new one. Finally think everything is clean well I thought. Tried to go back to bed didn't happen. So went to go check on the kids again. And Jed on his way to work tells me someone is poopie. So I go investigate, to find nobody is. So then I really start thinking. I never saw where Jared's underwear that was poopie went. So I start search his room to find that he had thrown it under Adriann's bed and poop was everywhere. So I clean it and off to bed I go. So when everyone is all wake for the morning I still walk past that room and smell it. So I really tear everything apart. And found there was poop all over the underside of Jared's pillow pet Thomas. So into the washer it went. By now I think I have solved the problem. And I wanted to feel like I was doing something good. So I started cutting the boys hair. Well I wish I didn't. Jared's hair is ruined, I feel horrible. It has a big strip down the middle of his head where there is no hair. And I didn't want to make him completely bald. So I left it that way. If you know me, I am super picky when it come to the way my family leaves the house. It really got to me. So Jared is going to be with a hat for quite some time. Awh maybe I should always skip Saturdays cause things like this always happen on Saturday.
And not last Saturday but the one before it was just like this week. Well it started at my moms house with my shoe just got without a trace. Like I tell everyone. I had my shoe and walking around stopped to talk to my mom for a while and than it was gone. Have no idea how it got off my foot. Than that night after walking back to my house with one shoe, jared missed the toilet completely and went all over the floor. Well I went running in later to go to the bathroom and found myself slipping and slidding in urine. Finally fell to the floor and it splashed up into my face and eyelashes. See what I mean. The cycle just needs to stop.