Well as we continue our crazy life in the year 2013, we try to get ahead of all the events that happen more often than we would like. But I hold my head up and keep chugging along. With Jed finally getting a new job, in which I probably see him even less now, than with the other job. But a jobs a job, atleast we have money coming in now.
And as Jed and I are coming up on 5years, I feel that I'm exhausted from all our trials in those years. Our list goes on and on, but we keep holding strong. Helping each other through are rough spots. I just wish we could actually have a Dad and Husband around all the time.
With all these rough spots, we do have some funny and really entertaining moments in the Jessop household. Earlier this year we had a problem with our DVD player in the truck, and knowing that not having a DVD player is a life changer in its self. Danny one day gets in the truck and says to me, "Mom, my Dad can fix cars but not Tv's". I say back to him a little teary eyed saying, "Danny, Dad doesn't have much time to even see us little lone fix a T.v.". Its moments like these that I can't help to think what are life would be like with Dad home more. Life is to short, I just wish things could be easier just every once in a while. Just like the other day Jared and Danny were surprisingly excited to come home, looking at Dad's parking spot to find that it was empty still. Jared with a frown and looking bummed says to Danny " Dad's not home yet to see me". Danny says back to him with his arm on Jared's shoulder, " Dad will come home some day soon, Mom says a couple days". As I find myself teary eyed again I try to keep going.
Another heart wrenching moment I had last week was the worst. It was Jared and Danny's school day and we had a amazing morning. They ate and everything without any stalling, and arrived to school a few minutes early. As we sat there waiting for Mrs. Clark to open the door Adriann goes to get in the line to get a drink. She leans over to Danny and asks him for a hug, so they hug and Jared gets his hug from Adriann as well. Continued to hug each other the door opens and the boys go running while Adriann stands and watches them run out of site. She out of no where yells, " Bye guys, I'll see ya later at Grandma's," waiting for a response from the boys I pick her up and start telling her that we will see them later. Headed for the door about to walk out Jared, out of nowhere, runs outside of his classroom with Danny following yells over to her saying, " Bye Dran, we'll see ya later." Than goes running back into class with a huge smile. Adriann at this point was a lot happier to be leaving now, while I'm having tears running down my check. Trying to keep composure I play it off as my eyes were watering. I love my kids its moments like those that keep me going, catching me off guard. I just wish Jed could actually live in the memories with us, instead of just hearing about the most touchful memories.
